Mental and Physical anguish

Hello,
Let's keep it real today....Although, my PSA readings are fantastic (0.10), my body aches and hurts each day.  I have gained weight, lost my ass, chest is not the same and I struggle each day with my overall appearance. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, as the radiation treatments and SEEDS therapy did their jobs.  However, this is just part of the process....they say, "Trust The Process."

My body will take a year, from my last treatment, to completely heal and get back to normal....whatever normal is!  When I sit for an extended period, my hamstrings hurt and it takes a few steps before I can actually walk without looking like an 90 year old man.  My work outs have been limited due to the side effects thus my weight gain and muscle mass loss have been challenging as well, and therein is my challenge.  I want my old stamina and body back but I must be patient.

Prior to my cancer journey, I worked out and stayed in shape, not because I'm vain, but I always wanted Elisa to be proud when we would go out in public, and like my physical appearance.

My recent trip to Austin, Texas had me a little nervous, as I simply had a chest cold, but the symptoms were just the same as when Elisa and I went to NY, just prior to me being diagnosed with cancer. I have to mentally work on not getting nervous every time I feel fatigued, short of breath or simply not 100%.  All will be good as my prayer warriors continually rock with me, and my family and friend support is phenomenal.

I know this blog is all over the board, but when speaking from the heart -you may miss a comma, or create a new paragraph when one is not needed, or not complete a sentence, but the meaning comes across the same.

Today Prayer (Is my favorite)
Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances
                         1 THESSALONIANS 5:16-18

Note: I was so close to getting a tattoo of a cross with the above scripture while in Austin this past weekend.

KCisms
51) Allow someone with an out of state plates move in front of you while driving
52) Always open your mothers car door
53) Open the car door for your female friend, even if she is not your girlfriend
54) At meetings, resist the temptation to turn around to see who has just arrived late
55) Don't be late to business meetings or family gatherings

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