So on the pain scale (1 being lowest and 10 being crazy pain), I have been at a 5 for the past two days and I am so pumped. Over the past six weeks, I have been at a 10 for 22 of the 24 hours of each day, but my faith and spirit have allowed me to rock through it.
As usual, Elisa has been a rock star and it would take me 100 lifetimes to repay her for all the love, energy and support she has given me. I'm looking into natural remedies for the pain, such as grapes, avocado's, broccoli, etc. which contain anti-inflammatory ingredients to help ease and eliminate the pain & discomfort.
The pain I am experiencing is temporary and will only make me a stronger man, better husband, father, and friend. We So GOT THIS!
He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name.
151) Whether it's life or a horse that throws you, get right back up and move on!
152) Always pack sanitation wipes when you travel
153) Go for nice, long walks with the one you love
154) Eat plenty of fruits and vegetables
155) Make a generous contribution to Cancer and/or Diabetes research
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So, it's been over two weeks since my last post, and I apologize for that! The past four weeks have been the toughest weeks of my entire life, as the radiation flare up pain has been intense, strong and relentless on me. There have been days where the pain has been so intense that I would just curl up in the fetal position and ask God, "Why me.? Why is he presenting this challenge to me? I am faithful and fearful of God in every way, thus why does this continue to happen to me.
You see, my PSA scores continue to tell me I am Cancer Free, but the side effects want to attempt to hold me and keep me down. Elisa and Blake even allowed me to have a couple of Root Beer Floats as they felt sorry for me.....Root Beer Floats are the best things ever! As the pain increased, so did my faith. I only missed one day of work and would not allow this health disruption to keep me on my back. I know I have someone rooting for me....my family, friends and GOD!
I grew up playing sports, and I’ve experienced the difference it makes to have somebody in the stands cheering for you. When you know they’re watching you, you hear them calling your name, you see their hands up in the air, it does something on the inside. It causes you to jump a little higher and run a little faster.
You’ve got a greater determination because you know somebody is rooting for you. I know GOD is rooting for me.....he wants me to succeed and crush these radiation flare ups...and I will!
Today, I have a great multitude in heaven cheering me on! They’re saying, “You got this Kim", You’re a winner and will always be a winner! You are well strong and faithful. No enemy formed against you will prosper!”
I say this to you, as my friends, No matter what difficulty you may be facing, you always have the home-court advantage. You are always surrounded by the voice of victory. Let that sink down deep into your heart today. Let it build confidence in you and give you the strength you need to keep moving forward into the abundant life He has prepared for you!
In all your ways, acknowledge him, and He shall direct thy paths.
146) Only honk at someone in your vehicle if they are about to hit you
147) Never honk at someone in anger
148) Never discuss politics at a family dinner
149) Always show love to your children, even when they have done something wrong
150) Greet people with a loving smile and warm eyes
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So, if you read my rant yesterday, you realized I was having some painful challenges in my life. However, while driving in my car yesterday, I quickly realized how blesses I am. I have an incredible wife, awesome children, great family and supportive friends. There are families who have kids with cancer, have lost loved ones, can't pay their gas bill, lost their jobs and more! So, why I am complaining about a little pain and thinking I'm less than? I'm not the man I use to be or I have become an average person.
It’s easy to go through life thinking that we’re average; we’re ordinary people. When God created us in His image, He put a part of Himself in all of us. We are destined to do great things, destined to leave our mark on this generation and earth. The truth is, there is nothing average about us; but too many times, we don’t realize who we are. We focus on our weaknesses, pains or what we don’t have. We focus on the mistakes we’ve made or the family from which we’ve come.
If we're going to break out of average, we need to remind ourselves every day, “I have the DNA of the God inside of me." We can't let a little pain and discomfort from keeping us from greatness. Our greatness will come out today.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.
141) Deadlines are important....meet them!
142) Don't ever buy a cheap mattress
143) When you apologize to someone, look them in the eye
144) Don't yell or argue with your mother
145) Own a world globe and map
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Please forgive me for my lack of postings over the past couple of weeks, as I have been experiencing some crazy side effects from my radiation treatments.
As you know, I'm forthright with my procedures, feelings, and everything to do with this post cancer crap. Well, two weeks ago, I had a small burning sensation when urinating......so I took some over the counter products, named AZO, to help relieve the pain. Nope, it didn't work as the pain begin to build and become more frequent.
I actually found myself having to use the restroom every 15 minutes and the burning sensation intensified. In fact, it grew stronger and stronger to the point where my best friend (Chris) starting calling me Colin Kaepernick, as I would have to take a knee after every bathroom visit. The pain was unbelievable, and to make things worse, I was extremely thirsty all the time, which means, I was drinking more water.....uuuuugggh.
Well, I went to urgent care, and they thought I had an Urinary Track Infection, which I thought only women get....boy, I was wrong. So, I received some antibiotics with the hopes of this pain going away in a few days....wrong!!!
The pain got worse, and I went to my urologist who prescribed me with some meds, but the medications did not work. So, I go back to my urologist, on an impromptu visit, and he does a small procedure called Urethral Dilation, yup sounds bad and it was bad. After the procedure, I use the bathroom and there is still a burning sensation and pain. For those who have never experienced this, and if you watch Game of Thrones, it's like Daenerys when she says, "Dracarys." Then her dragons released flames of fire at her enemies. Well, when I use the restroom, it's like I have those fire breathing dragons sitting on my shoulder and start blowing flames out of me....the pain is unbelievable.
I am now at the point where my urologist is going to perform a cystoscope on May 17th @ 9:20 am to see what is going on inside of me, so they can come up with a game plan for my relief. Bottom line is, I am experiencing what they call "Radiation Flare Ups." These flare ups can occur at anytime and could last one day, one week or one month. The only real solution is- well, I don't know the real solution yet. But hoping there is a solution, like immediately. Having to use the restroom every 15 minutes is creating challenges for me throughout the day......I'm still working and getting it done! But, boy this stuff sucks.
Be still and know that I am GOD
136) Have a good, reliable doctor in your life
137) Keep your clean at all times
138) Always have a safe, fun place in your mind
139) Remind yourself that negative feelings are only temporary
140) Watch a good comedy when feeling down
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Was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer on July 18, 2018 which may have crushed someone's soul and spirit. However, it did the opposite, as I already knew GOD had claimed my victory over this disease and was using me as an instrument to others who suffer from this deadly disease.